a week ago i was at my darling friends wedding

taking place at our city´s dark wood panelled registry office

it was a short and lovely affair, very official but light hearted and intimate
and i wish both of them (actually three - including their tiny baby boy) all the best

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she wore one of our CHANGE NECKLACES with her stunning Vivienne Westwood dress

which made me very proud

and i forgot to put on my new shoes in the last minute

something i had been waiting for since i got them weeks and weeks ago...

that´s why i´m posting pictures of what my outfit should have looked like

(isn´t that PALOMA WOOL COAT DRESS amazing?!)

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made her a bouquet with flowers from the garden

not the official one of course - i can´t be trusted with things like that right now

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forgot it was father´s day so i gave him some wild garlic scones inspired STEPHANINI

my mom got camomille short bread, store bought macaroons 

(the first turned out utterly bitter and the second gave us food poisoning)

and a vintage candy dish i conveniently found at the flea market the day before
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next week i will check into a hospital for a lot of diagnostical checks
including a spinal tap, CT scan and other stuff
and i´m utterly, utterly scared

here are a few thank-you-flowers

for your kind words and messages

and your patience when it comes to orders

it´s still only W who´s working and it isn´t easy since we do different things in the workshop

and now i have to sometimes show him how to do my tasks (instead of the other way round)
this year we had planned for him to teach me everything i didn´t know so far ( so he could retire at some point)
but none of this is happening right now

so we´ve slowed waaaaaay down

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i´m still waiting, which can be very tiresome and frustrating

and i´m always so glad when a day ends on a not so bad note

still my pain hasn´t got a definite name
but quite an array of impressive possible diagnoses

it´s all so vague and keeps getting vaguer with every specialist

hopes getting shattered, good spirits crushed

and i try to choose getting better so hard

but willing to heal my body doesn´t seem to be enough most days

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since i´m not so tired anymore right now

i walk a lot - by now i have found five secret paths in my neighbourhood

in case someone should be watching me, they´d probably think i´m insane

since i´m telling the collared doves i meet how cute they are,

take a close look at all the the inscriptions in the grave yard (probably not a mood booster)

and try to work out ways how to "save" those parrot tulips from an abandoned construction site

(i think i´ll do it someday midmorning when everyone is at work and there won´t be any witnesses)