my sisters say my moodswings are my most annoying habits

meaning me getting into a bad temper

so i try to avoid things making me angry

like watching political discussions and reading articles on some topics

they make me want to roll around on the floor kicking and screaming sometimes...

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but i think they are okay with me getting angry this morning reading Sarahs post on SAIPUA

women´s rights always get me started... 

so i try to listening not to closely to news on Mitt Romney´s campain

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also i thought of one of my professors saying in the first lesson

places to study graphic design for girls are a waste (at least two thirds of the class being girls!)

because we would all become mothers at some point

and then we would stop working anyway

like this would be our fault if we would choose to go this way

when really it is all about money - more money for men

becoming a mother and stopping working for a bit 

(there are still not that many and affordable oportunities for childcare for small children) 

equals no career in a lot of cases

it´s not like we can wait until we´re at the peak of our career in our late forties

get a young husband and start popping out those babies

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the most disturbing scene in Mad Men for me 

was after Peggy had fired a guy making an offensive drawing of Joan 

she told her now everybody thinks she´s just another humourless bitch

it´s still like that - we´re meant to laugh about it

when this business isn´t funny for sure

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grewing up my sisters and me were always told girls could do anything

(my dad thinking they could do it even better)

and with parents splitting housework and child care equaly

it is kind of hard to step out in the real world

and i actually sometimes do not know what to do

so probably starting to sing like those awesome girls is a good start:

YOU DON`T OWN ME

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also: an arrangement for my grandmothers grave

and another guest at the cat food station

very much respected by those felines

these pictures seem grey

but that´s just because of this sometimes quite foggy weather

actually they´re kind of really happy

also my last post wasn´t meant to be sad

but about something not so good turning into something really nice

(i did forget to mention that it never seemed to be dangerous

three inflamated vertebras causing all kinds of trouble)

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if you´re looking really closely you´ll see were this shipment is going

Nina, also known as FRÄULEIN TEXT came up with the wonderful ZIERRAT UND GOLD

and a few things from WSAKE are part of it

her SPACE is so beautiful and we´re so very happy about it

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two cats - heartshaped with a tail

on the hunt for their favorite treat

they are both neutered now

caught in the trap without noticing, being very brave

little girl was ruffled the first time by a human being in her life yesterday

purring like a tiny engine standing on tiptoes

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TINY BOUQUET #26 LAST BLOOM looks a bit eastery

picked those flowers right before they were crushed by the first snow

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some amazing jewellery finds over at MISS MOSS - amongst them WSAKE

thank you so much, Diana

actually next to really loving designing and working on jewellery and all things metal

and being really stubborn and therefor preferring working on my own

pain was a big reason for coming up with WSAKE

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i know out there people suffer from far more excruciating pain

and probably most of them don´t get any help

i don´t wail, but pain was a really big part of my life a few years back and it still is

pain is a sucker

it really is

sucks quite a bit right out of you

very tiring for body and mind

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i don´t need any help now putting on socks and tights and underpants

cutting food or getting out of the bath tub

i don´t spend hours lying face down on a sitting ball where the only things you can do is cross stitch and read

i don´t try to sleep kneeling or don´t sit down ever

i don´t need to breath and struggle through huge fit, constantly moving to not feel so much

i don´t need heavy pain killers anymore

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a lot of people told me i had to fight this

and i know that there are a lot of diseases where you have to turn your body into a war zone

i totally respect that

but i can´t fight a body that tries its best to function and just can´t

you don´t work against the pain you breath with it

and also you should sometimes act quickly to avoid recording too many pain memories

this is nothing to rush, you don´t jump out of it that easily

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actually i felt kind of strong during the peek of the pain

when it started to get easier due to medication

tiredness hit from being so brave and not crying all the time

and there came pressure to really get going now

with whatever

now that it´s better, almost good

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i still can´t do a "regular" job and that is okay

i don´t mourne for time lost or opportunities missed out

never did

somehow it still happens for a reason - it´s still my way

and i´ve learned so much

about what might be good for my body, about getting help

about the miracles of physiotheraphy (really, those guys are my heros - i wrote so quite often but i happily do so every day)

 and - of course - medication

i feel like i´ve grown, don´t know where, don´t know what

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and i know i should do something that makes me happy

and for me that is making jewellery with my father right now

and somehow it will work out

i really try to be sure

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TINY BOUQUET #25 SWEET DECAY

my neighbour likes decorating her house 

but compared to quite hideous santas climbing the walls come christmas time

this illuminated goose is actually kind of pretty

even my grandmother looked forward to its appereance at the end of each october

look how beautiful SLIDE BRACELETS, RIBBON BRACELETS, BEATEN BRACELETS

and DANCING BOWLS look at ATELIER SOLARSHOP in Antwerp, Belgium

we are so happy to have found such a nice place for them

amongst so many great artists and designers

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the actually really delicate FAKE CRYSTAL RING looking quite bombastic

in the new BRIGITTE - he´s very happy there

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planning on adding a few christmassy things to the shop at the beginning of November

cards, garlands and merry little pendants (for little money, too)

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hope you all hab a lovely weekend

mine was full of fog, QUINCE JAM and brass dust

thought i was done with the cold

but the cold wasn´t done with me

almost got a bit panicky thinking this is never going to end

still coughing and sneezing along

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read a nice interview with florist Thierry Boutemy in the new edition of THE PLANT

he says he is inspired by cuckoo clocks

there are a few in this house and i´m going to look very closely at them now

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vintage twine and heart shaped cookie cutters from the flea market

and quince making the apartment smell wonderful

and a nice compote

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went out a bit to get some fresh air to get healthy soon

took a walk by the river and made the TINY BOUQUET #24 PRETTY SICK (added some redundant pictures of it)

turnes out everything down there is covered in dog poo

so i took a few steps down into the river to get my rain boots clean again

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W made me a flower storing device

now you can´t see it anymore

to many geraniums on it wintering in my hallway

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made PUMPKIN BREAD

it turned out way to sweet for me 

(so sweet i had to lay down after having a slice, but maybe that was the old again)

even though i had already halved the sugar

so in case you want to give it a try to, use even less